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ThenfollowedtoClarencethreeuneventfulyears。DuringthatintervalhelearntthatJacksonBrant,orDonJuanRobinson——forthetieofkinshipwastheleastfactorintheirrelationstoeachother,andafterthedepartureofFlynnwastacitlyignoredbyboth——wasmoreSpanishthanAmerican。AnearlyresidenceinLowerCalifornia,marriagewitharichMexicanwidow,whosedyingchildlesslefthimsoleheir,andsomestrangerestrainingidiosyncrasyoftemperamenthadquitedenationalizedhim。A bookishrecluse,somewhatsuperfastidioustowardshisowncountrymen,themoreClarenceknewhimthemoresingularappearedhisacquaintancewithFlynn;butashedidnotexhibitmorecommunicativenessonthispointthanupontheirownkinship,Clarencefinallyconcludedthatitwasduetothedominantcharacterofhisformerfriend,andthoughtnomoreaboutit。HeentereduponthenewlifeatElRefugiowithnodisturbingpast。 Quicklyadaptinghimselftothelazyfreedomofthishaciendaexistence,hespentthemorningsonhorsebackrangingthehillsamonghiscousin\'scattle,andtheafternoonsandeveningsbusiedamonghiscousin\'sbookswithequallylawlessandundisciplinedindependence。Theeasy-goingDonJuan,itistrue,attemptedtomakegoodhisrashpromisetoteachtheboySpanish,andactuallysethimafewtasks;butinafewweeksthequick-wittedClarenceacquiredsuchacolloquialproficiencyfromhiscasualacquaintancewithvaquerosandsmalltradersthathewasgladtoleavethematterinhisyoungkinsman\'shands。Again,byoneofthoseillogicalsequenceswhichmakealifelongreputationdependuponasingletrivialact,Clarence\'ssocialstatuswassettledforeveratElRefugioRanchobyhispicturesquediversionofFlynn\'spartinggift。Thegratefulpeontowhomtheboyhadscornfullytossedthecoinrepeatedtheact,gesture,andspiritofthescenetohiscompanion,andDonJuan\'sunknownandyouthfulrelationwasatoncerecognizedashijodelafamilia,andundeniablyahidalgobornandbred。ButinthemorevividimaginationoffeminineElRefugiotheincidentreacheditshighestpoeticform。\"Itistrue,MotherofGod,\"saidChuchaoftheMill;\"itwasDomingowhohimselfrelatesitasitweretheCreed。WhentheAmericanescorthadarrivedwiththeyounggentleman,thisescort,lookyou,beingnotofthesamequality,heisdepartingagainwithoutawordofpermission。Comestohimatthismomentmylittlehidalgo。\'Youhaveyourselfforgottentotakefrommeyourdemission,\'hesaid。Thisescort,thinkingtomakehispeacewithameremuchacho,givestohimagoldpieceoftwentypesos。ThelittlehidalgohastakenitSO,andwiththewords,\'Ah!youwouldmakeofmeyouralmonertomycousin\'speople,\'hasgivenitatthemomenttoDomingo,andwithagraceandfireadmirable。\"ButitiscertainthatClarence\'ssingularsimplicityandtruthfulness,afacultyofbeingpicturesquelyindolentinawaythatsuggestedadreamyabstractionofmindratherthananyvulgartendencytobodilyeaseandcomfort,andpossiblythefactthathewasagoodhorseman,madehimapopularheroatElRefugio。AttheendofthreeyearsDonJuanfoundthatthisinexperiencedandapparentlyidleboyoffourteenknewmoreofthepracticalrulingoftheranchothanhedidhimself;alsothatthisunletteredyoungrustichaddevourednearlyallthebooksinhislibrarywithboyishrecklessnessofdigestion。 Hefound,too,thatinspiteofhissingularindependenceofaction,Clarencewaspossessedofaninvincibleloyaltyofprinciple,andthat,askingnosentimentalaffection,andindeedyieldingnone,hewas,withoutpresumingonhisrelationship,devotedtohiscousin\'sinterest。Itseemedthatfrombeingaglancingrayofsunshineinthehouse,evasivebutneverobtrusive,hehadbecomeadailynecessityofcomfortandsecuritytohisbenefactor。 Clarencewas,however,astonished,when,onemorning,DonJuan,withthesameembarrassedmannerhehadshownattheirfirstmeeting,suddenlyaskedhim,\"whatbusinessheexpectedtofollow。\" Itseemedthemoresingular,asthespeaker,likemostabstractedmen,hadhithertoalwaysstudiouslyignoredthefuture,intheirdailyintercourse。Yetthismighthavebeeneitherthehabitofsecurityorthecautionofdoubt。Whateveritwas,itwassomesuddendisturbanceofDonJuan\'sequanimity,asdisconcertingtohimselfasitwastoClarence。Soconsciouswastheboyofthisthat,withoutreplyingtohiscousin\'squestion,butstrivinginvaintorecallsomedelinquencyofhisown,heasked,withhisusualboyishdirectness—— \"Hasanythinghappened?HaveIdoneanythingwrong?\" \"No,no,\"returnedDonJuanhurriedly。\"But,yousee,it\'stimethatyoushouldthinkofyourfuture——oratleastprepareforit。 Imeanyououghttohavesomemoreregulareducation。Youwillhavetogotoschool。It\'stoobad,\"headdedfretfully,withacertainimpatientforgetfulnessofClarence\'spresence,andasiffollowinghisownthought。\"Justasyouarebecomingofservicetome,andjustifyingyourridiculouspositionhere——andallthisd——dnonsensethat\'sgonebefore——Imean,ofcourse,Clarence,\"heinterruptedhimself,catchingsightoftheboy\'swhiteningcheekanddarkeningeye,\"Imean,youknow——thisridiculousnessofmykeepingyoufromschoolatyourage,andtryingtoteachyoumyself——don\'tyousee。\" \"Youthinkitis——ridiculous,\"repeatedClarence,withdoggedpersistency。 \"ImeanIamridiculous,\"saidDonJuanhastily。\"There!there! let\'ssaynomoreaboutit。To-morrowwe\'llrideovertoSanJoseandseetheFatherSecretaryattheJesuits\'Collegeaboutyourenteringatonce。It\'sagoodschool,andyou\'llalwaysbeneartherancho!\"Andsotheinterviewended。 IamafraidthatClarence\'sfirstideawastorunaway。Therearefewexperiencesmorecrushingtoaningenuousnaturethanthesuddenrevelationoftheaspectinwhichitisregardedbyothers。 TheunfortunateClarence,consciousonlyofhisloyaltytohiscousin\'sinterestandwhathebelievedwerethedutiesofhisposition,awoketofindthatposition\"ridiculous。\"Inanafternoon\'sgloomyridethroughthelonelyhills,andlaterinthesleeplesssolitudeofhisroomatnight,heconcludedthathiscousinwasright。Hewouldgotoschool;hewouldstudyhard——sohardthatinalittle,averylittlewhile,hecouldmakealivingforhimself。Heawokecontented。Itwastheblessingofyouththatthisresolveandexecutionseemedasoneandthesamething。 Thenextdayfoundhiminstalledasapupilandboarderinthecollege。DonJuan\'spositionandSpanishpredilectionsnaturallymadehisrelationacceptabletothefaculty;butClarencecouldnothelpperceivingthatFatherSobriente,thePrincipal,regardedhimattimeswithathoughtfulcuriositythatmadehimsuspectthathiscousinhadespeciallybespokenthatattention,andthatheoccasionallyquestionedhimonhisantecedentsinawaythatmadehimdreadarenewaloftheoldquestioningabouthisprogenitor。 Fortherest,hewasapolished,cultivatedman;yet,inthecharacteristic,materialcriticismofyouth,IamafraidthatClarencechieflyidentifiedhimasapriestwithlargehands,whosesoftpalmsseemedtobecushionedwithkindness,andwhoseequallylargefeet,encasedinextraordinaryshapelessshoesofundyedleather,seemedtotreaddownnoiselessly——ratherthantoostentatiouslycrush——theobstaclesthatbesetthepathoftheyoungstudent。Inthecloisteredgalleriesofthecourt-yardClarencesometimesfelthimselfbornedownbytheprotectingweightofthispaternalhand;inthemidnightsilenceofthedormitoryhefanciedhewasoftenconsciousofthesoftbrowsingtreadandsnufflymuffledbreathingofhiselephantine-footedmentor。 Hisrelationswithhisschool-fellowswereatfirstfarfrompleasant。Whethertheysuspectedfavoritism;whethertheyresentedthatoldandunsympatheticmannerwhichsprangfromhishabitsofassociationwithhiselders;orwhethertheyrestedtheirobjectionsonthebroadergroundsofhisbeingastranger,Idonotknow,buttheypresentlypassedfromcruelsneerstophysicalopposition。Itwasthenfoundthatthisgentleandreservedyouthhadretainedcertainobjectionable,rude,direct,rusticqualitiesoffistandfoot,andthat,violatingallrulesanddisdainingthepompandcircumstanceofschool-boywarfare,ofwhichheknewnothing,hesimplythrashedafewofhisequalsoutofhand,withorwithoutceremony,astheoccasionortheinsulthappened。Inthisemergencyoneoftheseniorswasselectedtoteachthisyouthfulsavagehisproperposition。Achallengewasgiven,andacceptedbyClarencewithafeverishalacritythatsurprisedhimselfasmuchashisadversary。Thiswasayouthofeighteen,hissuperiorinsizeandskill。 ThefirstblowbathedClarence\'sfaceinhisownblood。Butthesanguinarychrism,tothealarmofthespectators,effectedaninstantaneousandunhallowedchangeintheboy。Instantlyclosingwithhisadversary,hesprangathisthroatlikeananimal,andlockinghisarmaroundhisneckbegantostranglehim。Blindtotheblowsthatraineduponhim,heeventuallyborehisstaggeringenemybysheeronsetandsurprisetotheearth。Amidstthegeneralalarm,thestrengthofhalfadozenhastilysummonedteacherswasnecessarytounlockhishold。Eventhenhestruggledtorenewtheconflict。Buthisadversaryhaddisappeared,andfromthatdayforwardClarencewasneveragainmolested。 SeatedbeforeFatherSobrienteintheinfirmary,withswollenandbandagedface,andeyesthatstillseemedtoseeeverythinginthemurkylightofhisownblood,Clarencefeltthesoftweightofthefather\'shanduponhisknee。 \"Myson,\"saidthepriestgently,\"youarenotofourreligion,orIshouldclaimasarighttoaskaquestionofyourownheartatthismoment。Butastoagoodfriend,Claro,agoodfriend,\"hecontinued,pattingtheboy\'sknee,\"youwilltellme,oldFatherSobriente,franklyandtruthfully,asisyourhabit,onelittlething。Wereyounotafraid?\" \"No,\"saidClarencedoggedly。\"I\'lllickhimagainto-morrow。\" \"Softly,myson!ItwasnotofHIMIspeak,butofsomethingmoreterribleandawful。Wereyounotafraidof——of——\"hepaused,andsuddenlydartinghiscleareyesintotheverydepthsofClarence\'ssoul,added——\"ofYOURSELF?\" Theboystarted,shuddered,andburstintotears。 \"So,so,\"saidthepriestgently,\"wehavefoundourrealenemy。 Good!Now,bythegraceofGod,mylittlewarrior,weshallfightHIMandconquer。\" WhetherClarenceprofitedbythislesson,orwhetherthisbriefexhibitionofhisqualitypreventedanyrepetitionofthecause,theepisodewassoonforgotten。Ashisschool-fellowshadneverbeenhisassociatesorconfidants,itmatteredlittletohimwhethertheyfearedorrespectedhim,orwerehypocriticallyobsequious,afterthefashionoftheweaker。Hisstudies,atallevents,profitedbythislackofdistraction。Alreadyhistwoyearsofdesultoryandomnivorousreadinghadgivenhimafacilefamiliaritywithmanythings,whichlefthimutterlyfreeofthetimidity,awkwardness,ornon-interestofabeginner。Hisusuallyreservedmanner,whichhadbeenlackofexpressionratherthanofconviction,haddeceivedhistutors。Theaudacityofamindthathadneverbeendominatedbyothers,andowednoallegiancetoprecedent,madehismerelysuperficialprogresssomethingmarvelous。 Attheendofthefirstyearhewasaphenomenalscholar,whoseemedcapableofanything。Nevertheless,FatherSobrientehadaninterviewwithDonJuan,andasaresultClarencewasslightlykeptbackinhisstudies,alittlemorefreedomfromtheruleswasconcededtohim,andhewasevenencouragedtotakesomediversion。 OfsuchwastheprivilegetovisittheneighboringtownofSantaClaraunrestrictedandunattended。Hehadalwaysbeenliberallyfurnishedwithpocket-money,forwhich,inhiscompanionlessstateandSpartanhabits,hehadasingularandunboyishcontempt。 Nevertheless,healwaysappeareddressedwithscrupulousneatness,andwasratherdistinguished-lookinginhisolderreserveandmelancholyself-reliance。 LoungingoneafternoonalongtheAlameda,aleafyavenuesetoutbytheearlyMissionFathersbetweenthevillageofSanJoseandtheconventofSantaClara,hesawadoublefileofyounggirlsfromtheconventapproaching,ontheirusualpromenade。AviewofthisprocessionbeingthefondestambitionoftheSanJosecollegian,andespeciallyinterdictedandcircumventedbythegoodFathersattendingthecollegeexcursions,Clarencefeltforittheprofoundindifferenceofaboywho,intheintermediatetemperatezoneoffifteenyears,thinksthatheisnolongeryoungandromantic!Hewaspassingthemwithacarelessglance,whenapairofdeepvioleteyescaughthisownunderthebroadshadeofacoquettishlyberibbonedhat,evenasithadoncelookedathimfromthedepthsofacalicosunbonnet。Susy!Hestarted,andwouldhavespoken; butwithaquicklittlegestureofcautionandameaningglanceatthetwonunswhowalkedattheheadandfootofthefile,sheindicatedhimtofollow。Hedidsoatarespectfuldistance,albeitwondering。AlittlefurtheronSusydroppedherhandkerchief,andwasobligedtodartoutandrunbacktotheendofthefiletorecoverit。Butshegaveanotherswiftglanceofherblueeyesasshesnatcheditupanddemurelyranbacktoherplace。Theprocessionpassedon,butwhenClarencereachedthespotwhereshehadpausedhesawathree-corneredbitofpaperlyinginthegrass。Hewastoodiscreettopickitupwhilethegirlswerestillinsight,butcontinuedon,returningtoitlater。 Itcontainedafewwordsinaschoolgirl\'shand,hastilyscrawledinpencil:\"Cometothesouthwallnearthebigpear-treeatsix。\" DelightedasClarencefelt,hewasatthesametimeembarrassed。 Hecouldnotunderstandthenecessityofthismysteriousrendezvous。Heknewthatifshewasascholarshewasundercertainconventualrestraints;butwiththeprivilegesofhispositionandfriendshipwithhisteachers,hebelievedthatFatherSobrientewouldeasilyprocurehimaninterviewwiththisoldplay- fellow,ofwhomhehadoftenspoken,andwhowas,withhimself,thesolesurvivorofhistragicalpast。AndtrustedashewasbySobriente,therewassomethinginthisclandestinethoughinnocentrendezvousthatwentagainsthisloyalty。Nevertheless,hekepttheappointment,andatthestatedtimewasatthesouthwalloftheconvent,overwhichthegnarledboughsofthedistinguishingpear-treehung。Hardbyinthewallwasagratedwicketdoorthatseemedunused。 Wouldsheappearamongtheboughsorontheedgeofthewall? EitherwouldbeliketheoldSusy。Buttohissurpriseheheardthesoundofthekeyturninginthelock。Thegrateddoorsuddenlyswungonitshinges,andSusyslippedout。Graspinghishand,shesaid,\"Let\'srun,Clarence,\"andbeforehecouldreplyshestartedoffwithhimatarapidpace。Downthelanetheyflew——verymuch,asitseemedtoClarence\'sfancy,astheyhadflownfromtheoldemigrantwagonontheprairie,fouryearsbefore。Heglancedatthefluttering,fairy-likefigurebesidehim。Shehadgrowntallerandmoregraceful;shewasdressedinexquisitetaste,withaminutenessofluxuriousdetailthatbespokethespoiltchild;buttherewasthesameprodigaloutburstofrippling,goldenhairdownherbackandshoulders,violeteyes,capriciouslittlemouth,andthesamedelicatehandsandfeethehadremembered。Hewouldhavepreferredamoredeliberatesurvey,butwithashakeofherheadandanhystericlittlelaughsheonlysaid,\"Run,Clarence,run,\" andagaindartedforward。Arrivingatthecross-street,theyturnedthecorner,andhaltedbreathlessly。 \"Butyou\'renotrunningawayfromschool,Susy,areyou?\"saidClarenceanxiously。 \"Onlyalittlebit。Justenoughtogetaheadoftheothergirls,\" shesaid,rearrangingherbrowncurlsandtiltedhat。\"Yousee,Clarence,\"shecondescendedtoexplain,withasuddenassumptionofoldersuperiority,\"mother\'shereatthehotelallthisweek,andI\'mallowedtogohomeeverynight,likeadayscholar。Onlythere\'sthreeorfourothergirlsthatgooutatthesametimewithme,andoneoftheSisters,andto-dayIgotaheadof\'emjusttoseeYOU。\" \"But\"beganClarence。 \"Oh,it\'sallright;theothergirlsknewit,andhelpedme。Theydon\'tstartoutforhalfanhouryet,andthey\'llsayI\'vejustrunahead,andwhentheyandtheSistergettothehotelI\'llbetherealready——don\'tyousee?\" \"Yes,\"saidClarencedubiously。 \"Andwe\'llgotoanice-creamsaloonnow,shan\'twe?There\'saniceonenearthehotel。I\'vegotsomemoney,\"sheaddedquickly,asClarencelookedembarrassed。 \"SohaveI,\"saidClarence,withafaintaccessionofcolor。 \"Let\'sgo!\"Shehadrelinquishedhishandtosmoothoutherfrock,andtheywerewalkingsidebysideatamoremoderatepace。\"But,\" hecontinued,clingingtohisfirstideawithmasculinepersistence,andanxioustoassurehiscompanionofhispower,ofhisposition,\"I\'minthecollege,andFatherSobriente,whoknowsyourladysuperior,isagoodfriendofmineandgivesmeprivileges;and——and——whenheknowsthatyouandIusedtoplaytogether——why,he\'llfixitthatwemayseeeachotherwheneverwewant。\" \"Oh,yousilly!\"saidSusy。\"WHAT!——whenyou\'re——\" \"WhenI\'mWHAT?\" Theyounggirlshotavioletbluerayfromunderherbroadhat。 \"Why——whenwe\'regrownupnow?\"Thenwithacertainprecision,\"Why,they\'reVERYparticularaboutyounggentlemen!Why,Clarence,iftheysuspectedthatyouandIwere——\"Anothervioletrayfromunderthehatcompletedthisunfinishedsentence。 Pleasedandyetconfused,Clarencelookedstraightaheadwithdeepeningcolor。\"Why,\"continuedSusy,\"MaryRogers,thatwaswalkingwithme,thoughtyouwereeversoold——andadistinguishedSpaniard!AndI,\"shesaidabruptly——\"haven\'tIgrown?Tellme,Clarence,\"withheroldappealingimpatience,\"haven\'tIgrown?Dotellme!\" \"Verymuch,\"saidClarence。 \"Andisn\'tthisfrockpretty——it\'sonlymysecondbest——butI\'veaprettieronewithlacealldowninfront;butisn\'tthisonepretty,Clarence,tellme?\" Clarencethoughtthefrockanditsfairownerperfection,andsaidso。WhereatSusy,asifsuddenlyawareofthepresenceofpassers- by,assumedanairofseverepropriety,droppedherhandsbyherside,andwithanaffectedconscientiousnesswalkedon,alittlefurtherfromClarence\'sside,untiltheyreachedtheice-creamsaloon。 \"Getatableneartheback,Clarence,\"shesaid,inaconfidentialwhisper,\"wheretheycan\'tseeus——andstrawberry,youknow,forthelemonandvanillaherearejusthorrid!\" Theytooktheirseatsinakindofrusticarborintherearoftheshop,whichgavethemtheappearanceoftwoyouthfulbutsomewhatover-dressedandover-consciousshepherds。Therewasanintervalofslightawkwardness,whichSusyendeavoredtodisplace。\"Therehasbeen,\"sheremarked,witheasyconversationallightness,\"quiteanexcitementaboutourFrenchteacherbeingchanged。Thegirlsinourclassthinkitmostdisgraceful。\" Andthiswasallshecouldsayafteraseparationoffouryears! Clarencewasdesperate,butasyetidealessandvoiceless。Atlast,withaneffortoverhisspoon,hegaspedafloatingrecollection:\"Doyoustilllikeflapjacks,Susy?\" \"Oh,yes,\"withalaugh,\"butwedon\'thavethemnow。\" \"AndMose\"(ablackpointer,whousedtoyelpwhenSusysang),\"doeshestillsingwithyou?\" \"Oh,HE\'Sbeenlosteversolong,\"saidSusycomposedly;\"butI\'vegotaNewfoundlandandaspanielandablackpony;\"andhere,witharapidinventoryofherotherpersonaleffects,shedriftedintosomedesultorydetailsofthedevotionofheradoptedparents,whomshenowreadilyspokeofas\"papa\"and\"mamma,\"withevidentlynodisturbingrecollectionofthedead。FromwhichitappearedthatthePeytonswereveryrich,and,inadditiontotheirpossessionsinthelowercountry,ownedaranchoinSantaClaraandahouseinSanFrancisco。Likeallchildren,herstrongestimpressionswerethemostrecent。Inthevainhopetoleadherbacktothismaterialyesterday,hesaid—— \"YourememberJimHooker?\" \"Oh,HEranaway,whenyouleft。Butjustthinkofit!Theotherday,whenpapaandIwentintoabigrestaurantinSanFrancisco,whoshouldbethereWAITINGonthetable——yes,Clarence,arealwaiter——butJimHooker!Papaspoketohim;butofcourse,\"withaslightelevationofherprettychin,\"Icouldn\'t,youknow;fancy—— awaiter!\" ThestoryofhowJimHookerhadpersonatedhimstoppedshortuponClarence\'slips。Hecouldnotbringhimselfnowtoaddthatrevelationtothecontemptofhissmallcompanion,which,inspiteofitsnaivete,somewhatgratedonhissensibilities。 \"Clarence,\"shesaid,suddenlyturningtowardshimmysteriously,andindicatingtheshopmanandhisassistants,\"Ireallybelievethesepeoplesuspectus。\" \"Ofwhat?\"saidthepracticalClarence。 \"Don\'tbesilly!Don\'tyouseehowtheyarestaring?\" Clarencewasreallyunabletodetecttheleastcuriosityonthepartoftheshopman,orthatanyoneexhibitedtheslightestconcerninhimorhiscompanion。Buthefeltareturnoftheembarrassedpleasurehewasconsciousofamomentbefore。 \"Thenyou\'relivingwithyourfather?\"saidSusy,changingthesubject。 \"YoumeanmyCOUSIN,\"saidClarence,smiling。\"YouknowmyfatherdiedlongbeforeIeverknewyou。\" \"Yes;that\'swhatYOUusedtosay,Clarence,butpapasaysitisn\'tso。\"Butseeingtheboy\'swonderingeyesfixedonherwithatroubledexpression,sheaddedquickly,\"Oh,then,heISyourcousin!\" \"Well,IthinkIoughttoknow,\"saidClarence,withasmile,thatwas,however,farfromcomfortable,andaquickreturnofhisoldunpleasantrecollectionsofthePeytons。\"Why,Iwasbroughttohimbyoneofhisfriends。\"AndClarencegavearapidboyishsummaryofhisjourneyfromSacramento,andFlynn\'sdiscoveryoftheletteraddressedtoSilsbee。ButbeforehehadconcludedhewasconsciousthatSusywasbynomeansinterestedinthesedetails,norintheleastaffectedbythepassingallusiontoherdeadfatherandhisrelationtoClarence\'smisadventures。Withherroundedchininherhand,shewasslowlyexamininghisface,withacertainmischievousyetdemureabstraction。\"Itellyouwhat,Clarence,\"shesaid,whenhehadfinished,\"yououghttomakeyourcousingetyouoneofthosesombreros,andanicegold-braidedserape。They\'djustsuityou。Andthen——thenyoucouldrideupanddowntheAlamedawhenwearegoingby。\" \"ButI\'mcomingtoseeyouat——atyourhouse,andattheconvent,\" hesaideagerly。\"FatherSobrienteandmycousinwillfixitallright。\" ButSusyshookherhead,withsuperiorwisdom。\"No;theymustneverknowoursecret!——neitherpapanormamma,especiallymamma。 Andtheymustn\'tknowthatwe\'vemetagain——AFTERTHESEYEARS!\"ItisimpossibletodescribethedeepsignificancewhichSusy\'sblueeyesgavetothisexpression。Afterapauseshewenton—— \"No!Wemustnevermeetagain,Clarence,unlessMaryRogershelps。 Sheismybest,myONLIESTfriend,andolderthanI;havinghadtroubleherself,andbeingexpresslyforbiddentoseehimagain。 YoucanspeaktoheraboutSuzette——that\'smynamenow;IwasrechristenedSuzetteAlexandraPeytonbymamma。Andnow,Clarence,\"droppinghervoiceandglancingshylyaroundthesaloon,\"youmaykissmejustonceundermyhat,forgood-by。\"Sheadroitlyslantedherbroad-brimmedhattowardsthefrontoftheshop,andinitsshadowadvancedherfreshyoungcheektoClarence。 Coloringandlaughing,theboypressedhislipstoittwice。ThenSusyarose,withthefaintestaffectationofasigh,shookoutherskirt,drewonhergloveswiththegreatestgravity,andsaying,\"Don\'tfollowmefurtherthanthedoor——they\'recomingnow,\"walkedwithsuperciliousdignitypastthepreoccupiedproprietorandwaiterstotheentrance。Hereshesaid,withmarkedcivility,\"Good-afternoon,Mr。Brant,\"andtrippedawaytowardsthehotel。 Clarencelingeredforamomenttolookafterthelitheandelegantlittlefigure,withitsshiningundulationsofhairthatfelloverthebackandshouldersofherwhitefrocklikeagoldenmantle,andthenturnedawayintheoppositedirection。 Hewalkedhomeinastate,asitseemedtohim,ofabsurdperplexity。ThereweremanyreasonswhyhisencounterwithSusyshouldhavebeenofunmixedpleasure。Shehadrememberedhimofherownfreewill,and,inspiteofthechangeinherfortune,hadmadethefirstadvances。Herdoubtsaboutherfutureinterviewshadaffectedhimbutlittle;stillless,Ifear,didhethinkoftheotherchangesinhercharacteranddisposition,forhewasofthatagewhentheyaddedonlyapiquancyandfascinationtoher——asofonewho,inspiteofherweaknessofnature,wasstilldevotedtohim!Buthewaspainfullyconsciousthatthismeetinghadrevivedinhimallthefears,vagueuneasiness,andsenseofwrongthathadhauntedhisfirstboyhood,andwhichhethoughthehadburiedatElRefugiofouryearsago。Susy\'sallusiontohisfatherandthereiterationofPeyton\'sskepticismawokeinhisolderintellectthefirstfeelingofsuspicionthatwascompatiblewithhisopennature。Wasthisrecurringreticenceandmysteryduetoanyactofhisfather\'s?But,lookingbackuponitinafter-years,heconcludedthattheincidentofthatdaywasapremonitionratherthanarecollection。 CHAPTERXI WhenhereachedthecollegetheAngelushadlongsincerung。InthecorridorhemetoneoftheFathers,who,insteadofquestioninghim,returnedhissalutationwithagravegentlenessthatstruckhim。HehadturnedintoFatherSobriente\'squietstudywiththeintentionofreportinghimself,whenhewasdisturbedtofindhiminconsultationwiththreeorfourofthefaculty,whoseemedtobethrownintosomeslightconfusionbyhisentrance。ClarencewasabouttoretirehurriedlywhenFatherSobriente,breakingupthecouncilwithasignificantglanceattheothers,calledhimback。 Confusedandembarrassed,withadreadofsomethingimpending,theboytriedtoavertitbyahurriedaccountofhismeetingwithSusy,andhishopesofFatherSobriente\'scounselandassistance。 TakinguponhimselftheideaofsuggestingSusy\'sescapade,heconfessedthefault。Theoldmangazedintohisfrankeyeswithathoughtful,half-compassionatesmile。\"Iwasjustthinkingofgivingyouaholidaywith——withDonJuanRobinson。\"Theunusualsubstitutionofthisfinaltitleforthehabitual\"yourcousin\" struckClarenceuneasily。\"Butwewillspeakofthatlater。Sitdown,myson;Iamnotbusy。Weshalltalkalittle。FatherPedrosaysyouaregettingonfluentlywithyourtranslations。Thatisexcellent,myson,excellent。\" Clarence\'sfacebeamedwithreliefandpleasure。Hisvaguefearsbegantodissipate。 \"Andyoutranslateevenfromdictation!Good!Wehaveanhourtospare,andyoushallgivetomeaspecimenofyourskill。Eh? Good!IwillwalkhereanddictatetoyouinmypoorEnglish,andyoushallsitthereandrenderittomeinyourgoodSpanish。Eh? Soweshallamuseandinstructourselves。\" Clarencesmiled。ThesesporadicmomentsofinstructionandadmonitionwerenotunusualtothegoodFather。HecheerfullyseatedhimselfatthePadre\'stablebeforeablanksheetofpaper,withapeninhishand。FatherSobrientepacedtheapartment,withhisusualheavybutnoiselesstread。Tohissurprise,thegoodpriest,afteranexhaustivepinchofsnuff,blewhisnose,andbegan,inhismostlugubriousstyleofpulpitexhortation:—— \"Ithasbeenwrittenthatthesinsofthefathershallbevisiteduponthechildren,andtheunthinkingandworldlyhavesoughtrefugefromthislawbydeclaringitharshandcruel。Miserableandblind!Fordowenotseethatthewickedman,whointheprideofhispowerandvaingloryiswillingtoriskpunishmenttoHIMSELF——andbelievesittobecourage——mustpausebeforetheawfulmandatethatcondemnsanequalsufferingtothoseheloves,whichhecannotwithholdorsufferfor?Inthespectacleoftheseinnocentsstrugglingagainstdisgrace,perhapsdisease,poverty,ordesertion,whatavailshishaughty,all-defyingspirit?Letusimagine,Clarence。\" \"Sir?\"saidtheliteralClarence,pausinginhisexercise。 \"Imean,\"continuedthepriest,withaslightcough,\"letthethoughtfulmanpictureafather:adesperate,self-willedman,whoscornedthelawsofGodandsociety——keepingonlyfaithwithamiserablesubterfugehecalled\'honor,\'andrelyingonlyonhisowncourageandhisknowledgeofhumanweakness。Imaginehimcruelandbloody——agamblerbyprofession,anoutlawamongmen,anoutcastfromtheChurch;voluntarilyabandoningfriendsandfamily,——thewifeheshouldhavecherished,thesonheshouldhaverearedandeducated——forthegratificationofhisdeadlypassions。Yetimaginethatmansuddenlyconfrontedwiththethoughtofthatheritageofshameanddisgustwhichhehadbroughtuponhisinnocentoffspring——towhomhecannotgiveevenhisowndesperaterecklessnesstosustainitsvicarioussuffering。Whatmustbethefeelingsofaparent——\" \"FatherSobriente,\"saidClarencesoftly。 Totheboy\'ssurprise,scarcelyhadhespokenwhenthesoftprotectingpalmofthepriestwasalreadyuponhisshoulder,andthesnuffybutkindlyupperlip,tremblingwithsomestrangeemotion,closebesidehischeek。 \"Whatisit,Clarence?\"hesaidhurriedly。\"Speak,myson,withoutfear!Youwouldask——\" \"Ionlywantedtoknowif\'padre\'takesamasculineverbhere,\" repliedClarencenaively。 FatherSobrienteblewhisnoseviolently。\"Truly——thoughusedforeithergender,bythecontextmasculine,\"herespondedgravely。 \"Ah,\"headded,leaningoverClarence,andscanninghisworkhastily,\"Good,verygood!Andnow,possibly,\"hecontinued,passinghishandlikeadampspongeoverhisheatedbrow,\"weshallreverseourexercise。IshalldelivertoyouinSpanishwhatyoushallrenderbackinEnglish,eh?And——letusconsider——weshallmakesomethingmorefamiliarandnarrative,eh?\" TothisClarence,somewhatboredbythesepresentsolemnabstractions,assentedgladly,andtookuphispen。FatherSobriente,resuminghisnoiselesspacing,began: \"OnthefertileplainsofGuadalajaralivedacertaincaballero,possessedofflocksandlands,andawifeandson。But,beingalsopossessedofafieryandrovingnature,hedidnotvaluethemashedidperilousadventure,featsofarms,andsanguinaryencounters。 Tothismaybeaddedriotousexcesses,gamblinganddrunkenness,whichintimedecreasedhispatrimony,evenashisrebelliousandquarrelsomespirithadalienatedhisfamilyandneighbors。Hiswife,bornedownbyshameandsorrow,diedwhilehersonwasstillaninfant。Inafitofequalremorseandrecklessnessthecaballeromarriedagainwithintheyear。Butthenewwifewasofatemperandbearingasbitterasherconsort。Violentquarrelsensuedbetweenthem,endinginthehusbandabandoninghiswifeandson,andleavingSt。Louis——IshouldsayGuadalajara——forever。 Joiningsomeadventurersinaforeignland,underanassumedname,hepursuedhisrecklesscourse,until,byoneortwoactsofoutlawry,hemadehisreturntocivilizationimpossible。Thedesertedwifeandstep-motherofhischildcoldlyacceptedthesituation,forbiddinghisnametobespokenagaininherpresence,announcedthathewasdead,andkepttheknowledgeofhisexistencefromhisownson,whomsheplacedunderthechargeofhersister。 Butthesistermanagedtosecretlycommunicatewiththeoutlawedfather,and,underapretext,arrangedbetweenthem,ofsendingtheboytoanotherrelation,actuallydispatchedtheinnocentchildtohisunworthyparent。Perhapsstirredbyremorse,theinfamousman——\" \"Stop!\"saidClarencesuddenly。 Hehadthrowndownhispen,andwasstandingerectandrigidbeforetheFather。 \"Youaretryingtotellmesomething,FatherSobriente,\"hesaid,withaneffort。\"Speakout,Iimploreyou。Icanstandanythingbutthismystery。Iamnolongerachild。Ihavearighttoknowall。Thisthatyouaretellingmeisnofable——Iseeitinyourface,FatherSobriente;itisthestoryof——of——\" \"Yourfather,Clarence!\"saidthepriest,inatremblingvoice。 Theboydrewback,withawhiteface。\"Myfather!\"herepeated。 \"Living,ordead?\" \"Living,whenyoufirstleftyourhome,\"saidtheoldmanhurriedly,seizingClarence\'shand,\"foritwashewhointhenameofyourcousinsentforyou。Living——yes,whileyouwerehere,foritwashewhoforthepastthreeyearsstoodintheshadowofthisassumedcousin,DonJuan,andatlastsentyoutothisschool。 Living,Clarence,yes;butlivingunderanameandreputationthatwouldhaveblastedyou!AndnowDEAD——deadinMexico,shotasaninsurgentandinastilldesperatecareer!MayGodhavemercyonhissoul!\" \"Dead!\"repeatedClarence,trembling,\"onlynow?\" \"Thenewsoftheinsurrectionandhisfatecameonlyanhoursince,\"continuedthePadrequickly;\"hiscomplicitywithitandhisidentitywereknownonlytoDonJuan。Hewouldhavesparedyouanyknowledgeofthetruth,evenasthisdeadmanwould;butIandmybrothersthoughtotherwise。Ihavebrokenittoyoubadly,myson,butforgiveme?\" AnhystericallaughbrokefromClarenceandthepriestrecoiledbeforehim。\"ForgiveYOU!Whatwasthismantome?\"hesaid,withboyishvehemence。\"HeneverLOVEDme!Hedesertedme;hemademylifealie。Heneversoughtme,camenearme,orstretchedahandtomethatIcouldtake?\" \"Hush!hush!\"saidthepriest,withahorrifiedlook,layinghishugehandupontheboy\'sshoulderandbearinghimdowntohisseat。 \"Youknownotwhatyousay。Think——think,Clarence!Wastherenoneofallthosewhohavebefriendedyou——whowerekindtoyouinyourwanderings——towhomyourheartturnedunconsciously?Think,Clarence!Youyourselfhavespokentomeofsuchaone。Letyourheartspeakagain,forhissake——forthesakeofthedead。\" Agentlerlightsuffusedtheboy\'seyes,andhestarted。Catchingconvulsivelyathiscompanion\'ssleeve,hesaidinaneager,boyishwhisper,\"Therewasone,awicked,desperateman,whomtheyallfeared——Flynn,whobroughtmefromthemines。Yes,Ithoughtthathewasmycousin\'sloyalfriend——morethanalltherest;andItoldhimeverything——all,thatInevertoldthemanIthoughtmycousin,oranyone,orevenyou;andIthink,Ithink,Father,Ilikedhimbestofall。Ithoughtsinceitwaswrong,\"hecontinued,withatremblingsmile,\"forIwasfoolishlyfondevenofthewaytheothersfearedhim,hethatIfearednot,andwhowassokindtome。 Yethe,too,leftmewithoutaword,andwhenIwouldhavefollowedhim——\"Buttheboybrokedown,andburiedhisfaceinhishands。 \"No,no,\"saidFatherSobriente,witheagerpersistence,\"thatwashisfoolishpridetospareyoutheknowledgeofyourkinshipwithonesofeared,andpartoftheblindandmistakenpenancehehadlaiduponhimself。Forevenatthatmomentofyourboyishindignation,heneverwassofondofyouasthen。Yes,mypoorboy,thisman,towhomGodledyourwanderingfeetatDeadman\'sGulch;themanwhobroughtyouhere,andbysomesecrethold——I knownotwhat——onDonJuan\'spast,persuadedhimtoassumetobeyourrelation;thismanFlynn,thisJacksonBrantthegambler,thisHamiltonBranttheoutlaw——WASYOURFATHER!Ah,yes!Weepon,myson;eachtearofloveandforgivenessfromtheehathvicariouspowertowashawayhissin。\" WithasinglesweepofhisprotectinghandhedrewClarencetowardshisbreast,untiltheboyslowlysankuponhiskneesathisfeet。 Then,liftinghiseyestowardstheceiling,hesaidsoftlyinanoldertongue,\"AndTHOU,too,unhappyandperturbedspirit,rest!\"…… ItwasnearlydawnwhenthegoodPadrewipedthelasttearsfromClarence\'sclearereyes。\"Andnow,myson,\"hesaid,withagentlesmile,asherosetohisfeet,\"letusnotforgettheliving。 Althoughyourstep-motherhas,throughherownact,nolegalclaimuponyou,farbeitfrommetoindicateyourattitudetowardsher。 EnoughthatYOUareindependent。\"Heturned,and,openingadrawerinhissecretaire,tookoutabank-book,andplaceditinthehandsofthewonderingboy。 \"ItwasHISwish,Clarence,thatevenafterhisdeathyoushouldneverhavetoproveyourkinshiptoclaimyourrights。TakingadvantageoftheboyishdeposityouhadleftwithMr。Cardenatthebank,withhisconnivanceandinyournameheaddedtoit,monthbymonthandyearbyyear;Mr。Cardencheerfullyacceptingthetrustandmanagementofthefund。Theseedthussownhasproducedathousandfold,Clarence,beyondallexpectations。Youarenotonlyfree,myson,butofyourselfandinwhatevernameyouchoose——yourownmaster。\" \"Ishallkeepmyfather\'sname,\"saidtheboysimply。 \"Amen!\"saidFatherSobriente。 HereclosesthechronicleofClarenceBrant\'sboyhood。Howhesustainedhisnameandindependenceinafteryears,andwho,ofthosealreadymentionedinthesepages,helpedhimtomakeormarit,maybeamatterforfuturerecord。