第9章

类别:其他 作者:E。 M。 Forster字数:10783更新时间:18/12/14 10:26:15
MissBartlettatoncecameforward,andafteralongpreambleaskedagreatfavour:mightshegotochurch?Mr。Beebeandhismotherhadalreadygone,butshehadrefusedtostartuntilsheobtainedherhostess\'sfullsanction,foritwouldmeankeepingthehorsewaitingagoodtenminutesmore。 \"Certainly,\"saidthehostesswearily。\"IforgotitwasFriday。 Let\'sallgo。Powellcangoroundtothestables。” \"Lucydearest——\" \"Nochurchforme,thankyou。” Asigh,andtheydeparted。Thechurchwasinvisible,butupinthedarknesstothelefttherewasahintofcolour。Thiswasastainedwindow,throughwhichsomefeeblelightwasshining,andwhenthedooropenedLucyheardMr。Beebe\'svoicerunningthroughthelitanytoaminutecongregation。Eventheirchurch,builtupontheslopeofthehillsoartfully,withitsbeautifulraisedtranseptanditsspireofsilveryshingle——eventheirchurchhadlostitscharm;andthethingonenevertalkedabout——religion—— wasfadinglikealltheotherthings。 ShefollowedthemaidintotheRectory。 WouldsheobjecttosittinginMr。Beebe\'sstudy?Therewasonlythatonefire。 Shewouldnotobject。 Someonewastherealready,forLucyheardthewords:\"Aladytowait,sir。” OldMr。Emersonwassittingbythefire,withhisfootuponagout-stool。 \"Oh,MissHoneychurch,thatyoushouldcome!\"hequavered;andLucysawanalterationinhimsincelastSunday。 Notawordwouldcometoherlips。Georgeshehadfaced,andcouldhavefacedagain,butshehadforgottenhowtotreathisfather。 \"MissHoneychurch,dear,wearesosorry!Georgeissosorry!Hethoughthehadarighttotry。Icannotblamemyboy,andyetI wishhehadtoldmefirst。Heoughtnottohavetried。Iknewnothingaboutitatall。” Ifonlyshecouldrememberhowtobehave! Hehelduphishand。\"Butyoumustnotscoldhim。” Lucyturnedherback,andbegantolookatMr。Beebe\'sbooks。 \"Itaughthim,\"hequavered,\"totrustinlove。Isaid:\'Whenlovecomes,thatisreality。\'Isaid:\'Passiondoesnotblind。 No。Passionissanity,andthewomanyoulove,sheistheonlypersonyouwilleverreallyunderstand。\'\"Hesighed:\"True,everlastinglytrue,thoughmydayisover,andthoughthereistheresult。Poorboy!Heissosorry!Hesaidheknewitwasmadnesswhenyoubroughtyourcousinin;thatwhateveryoufeltyoudidnotmean。Yet\"——hisvoicegatheredstrength:hespokeouttomakecertain——\"MissHoneychurch,doyourememberItaly?\" Lucyselectedabook——avolumeofOldTestamentcommentaries。 Holdingituptohereyes,shesaid:\"IhavenowishtodiscussItalyoranysubjectconnectedwithyourson。” \"Butyoudorememberit?\" \"Hehasmisbehavedhimselffromthefirst。” \"IonlywastoldthathelovedyoulastSunday。Inevercouldjudgebehaviour。I——I——supposehehas。” Feelingalittlesteadier,sheputthebookbackandturnedroundtohim。Hisfacewasdroopingandswollen,buthiseyes,thoughtheyweresunkendeep,gleamedwithachild\'scourage。 \"Why,hehasbehavedabominably,\"shesaid。\"Iamgladheissorry。Doyouknowwhathedid?\" \"Not\'abominably,\'\"wasthegentlecorrection。\"Heonlytriedwhenheshouldnothavetried。Youhaveallyouwant,MissHoneychurch:youaregoingtomarrythemanyoulove。DonotgooutofGeorge\'slifesayingheisabominable。” \"No,ofcourse,\"saidLucy,ashamedatthereferencetoCecil。 \"\'Abominable\'ismuchtoostrong。IamsorryIuseditaboutyourson。IthinkIwillgotochurch,afterall。Mymotherandmycousinhavegone。Ishallnotbesoverylate——\" \"Especiallyashehasgoneunder,\"hesaidquietly。 \"Whatwasthat?\" \"Goneundernaturally。”Hebeathispalmstogetherinsilence; hisheadfellonhischest。 \"Idon\'tunderstand。” \"Ashismotherdid。” \"But,Mr。Emerson——MR。EMERSON——whatareyoutalkingabout?\" \"WhenIwouldn\'thaveGeorgebaptized,\"saidhe。 Lucywasfrightened。 \"Andsheagreedthatbaptismwasnothing,buthecaughtthatfeverwhenhewastwelveandsheturnedround。Shethoughtitajudgment。”Heshuddered。\"Oh,horrible,whenwehadgivenupthatsortofthingandbrokenawayfromherparents。Oh,horrible—— worstofall——worsethandeath,whenyouhavemadealittleclearinginthewilderness,plantedyourlittlegarden,letinyoursunlight,andthentheweedscreepinagain!Ajudgment!Andourboyhadtyphoidbecausenoclergymanhaddroppedwateronhiminchurch!Isitpossible,MissHoneychurch?Shallweslipbackintothedarknessforever?\" \"Idon\'tknow,\"gaspedLucy。\"Idon\'tunderstandthissortofthing。Iwasnotmeanttounderstandit。” \"ButMr。Eager——hecamewhenIwasout,andactedaccordingtohisprinciples。Idon\'tblamehimoranyone……butbythetimeGeorgewaswellshewasill。Hemadeherthinkaboutsin,andshewentunderthinkingaboutit。” ItwasthusthatMr。EmersonhadmurderedhiswifeinthesightofGod。 \"Oh,howterrible!\"saidLucy,forgettingherownaffairsatlast。 \"Hewasnotbaptized,\"saidtheoldman。\"Ididholdfirm。”Andhelookedwithunwaveringeyesattherowsofbooks,asif——atwhatcost!——hehadwonavictoryoverthem。\"Myboyshallgobacktotheearthuntouched。” SheaskedwhetheryoungMr。Emersonwasill。 \"Oh——lastSunday。”Hestartedintothepresent。\"GeorgelastSunday——no,notill:justgoneunder。Heisneverill。Butheishismother\'sson。Hereyeswerehis,andshehadthatforeheadthatIthinksobeautiful,andhewillnotthinkitworthwhiletolive。Itwasalwaystouchandgo。Hewilllive;buthewillnotthinkitworthwhiletolive。Hewillneverthinkanythingworthwhile。YourememberthatchurchatFlorence?\" Lucydidremember,andhowshehadsuggestedthatGeorgeshouldcollectpostagestamps。 \"AfteryouleftFlorence——horrible。Thenwetookthehousehere,andhegoesbathingwithyourbrother,andbecamebetter。Yousawhimbathing?\" \"Iamsosorry,butitisnogooddiscussingthisaffair。Iamdeeplysorryaboutit。” \"Thentherecamesomethingaboutanovel。Ididn\'tfollowitatall;Ihadtohearsomuch,andhemindedtellingme;hefindsmetooold。Ah,well,onemusthavefailures。Georgecomesdownto-morrow,andtakesmeuptohisLondonrooms。Hecan\'tbeartobeabouthere,andImustbewhereheis。” \"Mr。Emerson,\"criedthegirl,\"don\'tleaveatleast,notonmyaccount。IamgoingtoGreece。Don\'tleaveyourcomfortablehouse。” Itwasthefirsttimehervoicehadbeenkindandhesmiled。\"Howgoodeveryoneis!AndlookatMr。Beebehousingme——cameoverthismorningandheardIwasgoing!HereIamsocomfortablewithafire。” \"Yes,butyouwon\'tgobacktoLondon。It\'sabsurd。” \"ImustbewithGeorge;Imustmakehimcaretolive,anddownherehecan\'t。Hesaysthethoughtofseeingyouandofhearingaboutyou——Iamnotjustifyinghim:Iamonlysayingwhathashappened。” \"Oh,Mr。Emerson\"——shetookholdofhishand——\"youmustn\'t。I\'vebeenbotherenoughtotheworldbynow。Ican\'thaveyoumovingoutofyourhousewhenyoulikeit,andperhapslosingmoneythroughit——allonmyaccount。Youmuststop!IamjustgoingtoGreece。” \"AllthewaytoGreece?\" Hermanneraltered。 \"ToGreece?\" \"Soyoumuststop。Youwon\'ttalkaboutthisbusiness,Iknow。I cantrustyouboth。” \"Certainlyyoucan。Weeitherhaveyouinourlives,orleaveyoutothelifethatyouhavechosen。” \"Ishouldn\'twant——\" \"IsupposeMr。VyseisveryangrywithGeorge?No,itwaswrongofGeorgetotry。Wehavepushedourbeliefstoofar。Ifancythatwedeservesorrow。” Shelookedatthebooksagain——black,brown,andthatacridtheologicalblue。Theysurroundedthevisitorsoneveryside; theywerepiledonthetables,theypressedagainsttheveryceiling。ToLucywhocouldnotseethatMr。Emersonwasprofoundlyreligious,anddifferedfromMr。Beebechieflybyhisacknowledgmentofpassion——itseemeddreadfulthattheoldmanshouldcrawlintosuchasanctum,whenhewasunhappy,andbedependentonthebountyofaclergyman。 Morecertainthaneverthatshewastired,heofferedherhischair。 \"No,pleasesitstill。IthinkIwillsitinthecarriage。” \"MissHoneychurch,youdosoundtired。” \"Notabit,\"saidLucy,withtremblinglips。 \"Butyouare,andthere\'salookofGeorgeaboutyou。Andwhatwereyousayingaboutgoingabroad?\" Shewassilent。 \"Greece\"——andshesawthathewasthinkingthewordover—— \"Greece;butyouweretobemarriedthisyear,Ithought。” \"NottillJanuary,itwasn\'t,\"saidLucy,claspingherhands。 Wouldshetellanactualliewhenitcametothepoint? \"IsupposethatMr。Vyseisgoingwithyou。Ihope——itisn\'tbecauseGeorgespokethatyouarebothgoing?\" \"No。” \"IhopethatyouwillenjoyGreecewithMr。Vyse。” \"Thankyou。” AtthatmomentMr。Beebecamebackfromchurch。Hiscassockwascoveredwithrain。\"That\'sallright,\"hesaidkindly。\"Icountedonyoutwokeepingeachothercompany。It\'spouringagain。Theentirecongregation,whichconsistsofyourcousin,yourmother,andmymother,standswaitinginthechurch,tillthecarriagefetchesit。DidPowellgoround?\" \"Ithinkso;I\'llsee。” \"No——ofcourse,I\'llsee。HowaretheMissAlans?\" \"Verywell,thankyou。” \"DidyoutellMr。EmersonaboutGreece?\" \"I——Idid。” \"Don\'tyouthinkitverypluckyofher,Mr。Emerson,toundertakethetwoMissAlans?Now,MissHoneychurch,goback——keepwarm。I thinkthreeissuchacourageousnumbertogotravelling。”Andhehurriedofftothestables。 \"Heisnotgoing,\"shesaidhoarsely。\"Imadeaslip。Mr。VysedoesstopbehindinEngland。” Somehowitwasimpossibletocheatthisoldman。ToGeorge,toCecil,shewouldhaveliedagain;butheseemedsoneartheendofthings,sodignifiedinhisapproachtothegulf,ofwhichhegaveoneaccount,andthebooksthatsurroundedhimanother,somildtotheroughpathsthathehadtraversed,thatthetruechivalry——nottheworn-outchivalryofsex,butthetruechivalrythatalltheyoungmayshowtoalltheold——awokeinher,and,atwhateverrisk,shetoldhimthatCecilwasnothercompaniontoGreece。Andshespokesoseriouslythattheriskbecameacertainty,andhe,liftinghiseyes,said:\"Youareleavinghim? Youareleavingthemanyoulove?\" \"I——Ihadto。” \"Why,MissHoneychurch,why?\" Terrorcameoverher,andsheliedagain。Shemadethelong,convincingspeechthatshehadmadetoMr。Beebe,andintendedtomaketotheworldwhensheannouncedthatherengagementwasnomore。Heheardherinsilence,andthensaid:\"Mydear,Iamworriedaboutyou。Itseemstome\"——dreamily;shewasnotalarmed——\"thatyouareinamuddle。” Sheshookherhead。 \"Takeanoldman\'sword;there\'snothingworsethanamuddleinalltheworld。ItiseasytofaceDeathandFate,andthethingsthatsoundsodreadful。ItisonmymuddlesthatIlookbackwithhorror——onthethingsthatImighthaveavoided。Wecanhelponeanotherbutlittle。IusedtothinkIcouldteachyoungpeoplethewholeoflife,butIknowbetternow,andallmyteachingofGeorgehascomedowntothis:bewareofmuddle。Doyourememberinthatchurch,whenyoupretendedtobeannoyedwithmeandweren\'t?Doyourememberbefore,whenyourefusedtheroomwiththeview?Thoseweremuddles——little,butominous——andIamfearingthatyouareinonenow。”Shewassilent。\"Don\'ttrustme,MissHoneychurch。Thoughlifeisveryglorious,itisdifficult。”Shewasstillsilent。\"\'Life\'wroteafriendofmine,\'isapublicperformanceontheviolin,inwhichyoumustlearntheinstrumentasyougoalong。\'Ithinkheputsitwell。Manhastopickuptheuseofhisfunctionsashegoesalong——especiallythefunctionofLove。”Thenheburstoutexcitedly;\"That\'sit; that\'swhatImean。YouloveGeorge!\"Andafterhislongpreamble,thethreewordsburstagainstLucylikewavesfromtheopensea。 \"Butyoudo,\"hewenton,notwaitingforcontradiction。\"Youlovetheboybodyandsoul,plainly,directly,ashelovesyou,andnootherwordexpressesit。Youwon\'tmarrytheothermanforhissake。” \"Howdareyou!\"gaspedLucy,withtheroaringofwatersinherears。\"Oh,howlikeaman!——Imean,tosupposethatawomanisalwaysthinkingaboutaman。” \"Butyouare。” Shesummonedphysicaldisgust。 \"You\'reshocked,butImeantoshockyou。It\'stheonlyhopeattimes。Icanreachyounootherway。Youmustmarry,oryourlifewillbewasted。Youhavegonetoofartoretreat。Ihavenotimeforthetenderness,andthecomradeship,andthepoetry,andthethingsthatreallymatter,andforwhichyoumarry。Iknowthat,withGeorge,youwillfindthem,andthatyoulovehim。Thenbehiswife。Heisalreadypartofyou。ThoughyouflytoGreece,andneverseehimagain,orforgethisveryname,Georgewillworkinyourthoughtstillyoudie。Itisn\'tpossibletoloveandtopart。Youwillwishthatitwas。Youcantransmutelove,ignoreit,muddleit,butyoucanneverpullitoutofyou。I knowbyexperiencethatthepoetsareright:loveiseternal。” Lucybegantocrywithanger,andthoughherangerpassedawaysoon,hertearsremained。 \"Ionlywishpoetswouldsaythis,too:loveisofthebody;notthebody,butofthebody。Ah!themiserythatwouldbesavedifweconfessedthat!Ah!foralittledirectnesstoliberatethesoul!Yoursoul,dearLucy!Ihatethewordnow,becauseofallthecantwithwhichsuperstitionhaswrappeditround。Butwehavesouls。Icannotsayhowtheycamenorwhithertheygo,butwehavethem,andIseeyouruiningyours。Icannotbearit。Itisagainthedarknesscreepingin;itishell。”Thenhecheckedhimself。\"WhatnonsenseIhavetalked——howabstractandremote! AndIhavemadeyoucry!Deargirl,forgivemyprosiness;marrymyboy。WhenIthinkwhatlifeis,andhowseldomloveisansweredbylove——Marryhim;itisoneofthemomentsforwhichtheworldwasmade。” Shecouldnotunderstandhim;thewordswereindeedremote。Yetashespokethedarknesswaswithdrawn,veilafterveil,andshesawtothebottomofhersoul。 \"Then,Lucy——\" \"You\'vefrightenedme,\"shemoaned。\"Cecil——Mr。Beebe——theticket\'sbought——everything。”Shefellsobbingintothechair。 \"I\'mcaughtinthetangle。Imustsufferandgrowoldawayfromhim。Icannotbreakthewholeoflifeforhissake。Theytrustedme。” Acarriagedrewupatthefront-door。 \"GiveGeorgemylove——onceonly。Tellhim\'muddle。\'\"Thenshearrangedherveil,whilethetearspouredoverhercheeksinside。 \"Lucy——\" \"No——theyareinthehall——oh,pleasenot,Mr。Emerson——theytrustme——\" \"Butwhyshouldthey,whenyouhavedeceivedthem?\" Mr。Beebeopenedthedoor,saying:\"Here\'smymother。” \"You\'renotworthyoftheirtrust。” \"What\'sthat?\"saidMr。Beebesharply。 \"Iwassaying,whyshouldyoutrustherwhenshedeceivedyou?\" \"Oneminute,mother。”Hecameinandshutthedoor。 \"Idon\'tfollowyou,Mr。Emerson。Towhomdoyourefer?Trustwhom?\" \"ImeanshehaspretendedtoyouthatshedidnotloveGeorge。 Theyhavelovedoneanotherallalong。” Mr。Beebelookedatthesobbinggirl。Hewasveryquiet,andhiswhiteface,withitsruddywhiskers,seemedsuddenlyinhuman。A longblackcolumn,hestoodandawaitedherreply。 \"Ishallnevermarryhim,\"quaveredLucy。 Alookofcontemptcameoverhim,andhesaid,\"Whynot?\" \"Mr。Beebe——Ihavemisledyou——Ihavemisledmyself——\" \"Oh,rubbish,MissHoneychurch!\" \"Itisnotrubbish!\"saidtheoldmanhotly。\"It\'sthepartofpeoplethatyoudon\'tunderstand。” Mr。Beebelaidhishandontheoldman\'sshoulderpleasantly。 \"Lucy!Lucy!\"calledvoicesfromthecarriage。 \"Mr。Beebe,couldyouhelpme?\" Helookedamazedattherequest,andsaidinalow,sternvoice: \"IammoregrievedthanIcanpossiblyexpress。Itislamentable,lamentable——incredible。” \"What\'swrongwiththeboy?\"fireduptheotheragain。 \"Nothing,Mr。Emerson,exceptthathenolongerinterestsme。 MarryGeorge,MissHoneychurch。Hewilldoadmirably。” Hewalkedoutandleftthem。Theyheardhimguidinghismotherup-stairs。 \"Lucy!\"thevoicescalled。 SheturnedtoMr。Emersonindespair。Buthisfacerevivedher。Itwasthefaceofasaintwhounderstood。 \"Nowitisalldark。NowBeautyandPassionseemnevertohaveexisted。Iknow。ButrememberthemountainsoverFlorenceandtheview。Ah,dear,ifIwereGeorge,andgaveyouonekiss,itwouldmakeyoubrave。Youhavetogocoldintoabattlethatneedswarmth,outintothemuddlethatyouhavemadeyourself;andyourmotherandallyourfriendswilldespiseyou,oh,mydarling,andrightly,ifitiseverrighttodespise。Georgestilldark,allthetussleandthemiserywithoutawordfromhim。AmI justified?\"Intohisowneyestearscame。\"Yes,forwefightformorethanLoveorPleasure;thereisTruth。Truthcounts,Truthdoescount。” \"Youkissme,\"saidthegirl。\"Youkissme。Iwilltry。” Hegaveherasenseofdeitiesreconciled,afeelingthat,ingainingthemansheloved,shewouldgainsomethingforthewholeworld。Throughoutthesqualorofherhomewarddrive——shespokeatonce——hissalutationremained。Hehadrobbedthebodyofitstaint,theworld\'stauntsoftheirsting;hehadshownhertheholinessofdirectdesire。She\"neverexactlyunderstood,\"shewouldsayinafteryears,\"howhemanagedtostrengthenher。Itwasasifhehadmadeherseethewholeofeverythingatonce。” ChapterXX:TheEndoftheMiddleAgesTheMissAlansdidgotoGreece,buttheywentbythemselves。 TheyaloneofthislittlecompanywilldoubleMaleaandploughthewatersoftheSaronicgulf。TheyalonewillvisitAthensandDelphi,andeithershrineofintellectualsong——thatupontheAcropolis,encircledbyblueseas;thatunderParnassus,wheretheeaglesbuildandthebronzecharioteerdrivesundismayedtowardsinfinity。Trembling,anxious,cumberedwithmuchdigestivebread,theydidproceedtoConstantinople,theydidgoroundtheworld。Therestofusmustbecontentedwithafair,butalessarduous,goal。Italiampetimus:wereturntothePensionBertolini。 Georgesaiditwashisoldroom。 \"No,itisn\'t,\"saidLucy;\"becauseitistheroomIhad,andI hadyourfather\'sroom。Iforgetwhy;Charlottemademe,forsomereason。” Hekneltonthetiledfloor,andlaidhisfaceinherlap。 \"George,youbaby,getup。” \"Whyshouldn\'tIbeababy?\"murmuredGeorge。 Unabletoanswerthisquestion,sheputdownhissock,whichshewastryingtomend,andgazedoutthroughthewindow。Itwaseveningandagainthespring。 \"Oh,botherCharlotte,\"shesaidthoughtfully。\"Whatcansuchpeoplebemadeof?\" \"Samestuffasparsonsaremadeof。” \"Nonsense!\" \"Quiteright。Itisnonsense。” \"Nowyougetupoffthecoldfloor,oryou\'llbestartingrheumatismnext,andyoustoplaughingandbeingsosilly。” \"Whyshouldn\'tIlaugh?\"heasked,pinningherwithhiselbows,andadvancinghisfacetohers。\"What\'stheretocryat?Kissmehere。”Heindicatedthespotwhereakisswouldbewelcome。 Hewasaboyafterall。Whenitcametothepoint,itwasshewhorememberedthepast,sheintowhosesoultheironhadentered,shewhoknewwhoseroomthishadbeenlastyear。Itendearedhimtoherstrangelythatheshouldbesometimeswrong。 \"Anyletters?\"heasked。 \"JustalinefromFreddy。” \"Nowkissmehere;thenhere。” Then,threatenedagainwithrheumatism,hestrolledtothewindow,openedit(astheEnglishwill),andleantout。Therewastheparapet,theretheriver,theretotheleftthebeginningsofthehills。Thecab-driver,whoatoncesalutedhimwiththehissofaserpent,mightbethatveryPhaethonwhohadsetthishappinessinmotiontwelvemonthsago。Apassionofgratitude—— allfeelingsgrowtopassionsintheSouth——cameoverthehusband,andheblessedthepeopleandthethingswhohadtakensomuchtroubleaboutayoungfool。Hehadhelpedhimself,itistrue,buthowstupidly! Allthefightingthatmatteredhadbeendonebyothers——byItaly,byhisfather,byhiswife。 \"Lucy,youcomeandlookatthecypresses;andthechurch,whateveritsnameis,stillshows。” \"SanMiniato。I\'lljustfinishyoursock。” \"Signorino,domanifaremounogiro,\"calledthecabman,withengagingcertainty。 Georgetoldhimthathewasmistaken;theyhadnomoneytothrowawayondriving。 Andthepeoplewhohadnotmeanttohelp——theMissLavishes,theCecils,theMissBartletts!EverpronetomagnifyFate,Georgecounteduptheforcesthathadswepthimintothiscontentment。 \"AnythinggoodinFreddy\'sletter?\" \"Notyet。” Hisowncontentwasabsolute,buthersheldbitterness:theHoneychurcheshadnotforgiventhem;theyweredisgustedatherpasthypocrisy;shehadalienatedWindyCorner,perhapsforever。 \"Whatdoeshesay?\" \"Sillyboy!Hethinkshe\'sbeingdignified。Heknewweshouldgooffinthespring——hehasknownitforsixmonths——thatifmotherwouldn\'tgiveherconsentweshouldtakethethingintoourownhands。Theyhadfairwarning,andnowhecallsitanelopement。 Ridiculousboy——\" \"Signorino,domanifaremounogiro——\" \"Butitwillallcomerightintheend。Hehastobuildusbothupfromthebeginningagain。Iwish,though,thatCecilhadnotturnedsocynicalaboutwomen。Hehas,forthesecondtime,quitealtered。Whywillmenhavetheoriesaboutwomen?Ihaven\'tanyaboutmen。Iwish,too,thatMr。Beebe——\" \"Youmaywellwishthat。” \"Hewillneverforgiveus——Imean,hewillneverbeinterestedinusagain。IwishthathedidnotinfluencethemsomuchatWindyCorner。Iwishhehadn\'t——Butifweactthetruth,thepeoplewhoreallyloveusaresuretocomebacktousinthelongrun。” \"Perhaps。”Thenhesaidmoregently:\"Well,Iactedthetruth—— theonlythingIdiddo——andyoucamebacktome。Sopossiblyyouknow。”Heturnedbackintotheroom。\"Nonsensewiththatsock。” Hecarriedhertothewindow,sothatshe,too,sawalltheview。 Theysankupontheirknees,invisiblefromtheroad,theyhoped,andbegantowhisperoneanother\'snames。Ah!itwasworthwhile; itwasthegreatjoythattheyhadexpected,andcountlesslittlejoysofwhichtheyhadneverdreamt。Theyweresilent。 \"Signorino,domanifaremo——\" \"Oh,botherthatman!\" ButLucyrememberedthevendorofphotographsandsaid,\"No,don\'tberudetohim。”Thenwithacatchingofherbreath,shemurmured:\"Mr。EagerandCharlotte,dreadfulfrozenCharlotte。 Howcruelshewouldbetoamanlikethat!\" \"Lookatthelightsgoingoverthebridge。” \"ButthisroomremindsmeofCharlotte。HowhorribletogrowoldinCharlotte\'sway!Tothinkthateveningattherectorythatsheshouldn\'thaveheardyourfatherwasinthehouse。Forshewouldhavestoppedmegoingin,andhewastheonlypersonalivewhocouldhavemademeseesense。Youcouldn\'thavemademe。WhenI amveryhappy\"——shekissedhim——\"Irememberonhowlittleitallhangs。IfCharlottehadonlyknown,shewouldhavestoppedmegoingin,andIshouldhavegonetosillyGreece,andbecomedifferentforever。” \"Butshedidknow,\"saidGeorge;\"shedidseemyfather,surely。 Hesaidso。” \"Oh,no,shedidn\'tseehim。ShewasupstairswitholdMrs。 Beebe,don\'tyouremember,andthenwentstraighttothechurch。 Shesaidso。” Georgewasobstinateagain。\"Myfather,\"saidhe,\"sawher,andI preferhisword。Hewasdozingbythestudyfire,andheopenedhiseyes,andtherewasMissBartlett。Afewminutesbeforeyoucamein。Shewasturningtogoashewokeup。Hedidn\'tspeaktoher。” Thentheyspokeofotherthings——thedesultorytalkofthosewhohavebeenfightingtoreachoneanother,andwhoserewardistorestquietlyineachother\'sarms。ItwaslongeretheyreturnedtoMissBartlett,butwhentheydidherbehaviourseemedmoreinteresting。George,whodislikedanydarkness,said:\"It\'sclearthatsheknew。Then,whydidsheriskthemeeting?Sheknewhewasthere,andyetshewenttochurch。” Theytriedtopiecethethingtogether。 Astheytalked,anincrediblesolutioncameintoLucy\'smind。Sherejectedit,andsaid:\"HowlikeCharlottetoundoherworkbyafeeblemuddleatthelastmoment。”Butsomethinginthedyingevening,intheroaroftheriver,intheirveryembracewarnedthemthatherwordsfellshortoflife,andGeorgewhispered:\"Ordidshemeanit?\" \"Meanwhat?\" \"Signorino,domanifaremounogiro——\" Lucybentforwardandsaidwithgentleness:\"Lascia,prego,lascia。Siamosposati。” \"Scusitanto,signora,\"herepliedintonesasgentleandwhippeduphishorse。 \"Buonasera——egrazie。” \"Niente。” Thecabmandroveawaysinging。 \"Meanwhat,George?\" Hewhispered:\"Isitthis?Isthispossible?I\'llputamarveltoyou。Thatyourcousinhasalwayshoped。Thatfromtheveryfirstmomentwemet,shehoped,fardowninhermind,thatweshouldbelikethis——ofcourse,veryfardown。Thatshefoughtusonthesurface,andyetshehoped。Ican\'texplainheranyotherway。 Canyou?Lookhowshekeptmealiveinyouallthesummer;howshegaveyounopeace;howmonthaftermonthshebecamemoreeccentricandunreliable。Thesightofushauntedher——orshecouldn\'thavedescribedusasshedidtoherfriend。Therearedetails——itburnt。Ireadthebookafterwards。Sheisnotfrozen,Lucy,sheisnotwitheredupallthrough。Shetoreusaparttwice,butintherectorythateveningshewasgivenonemorechancetomakeushappy。Wecannevermakefriendswithherorthankher。ButIdobelievethat,fardowninherheart,farbelowallspeechandbehaviour,sheisglad。” \"Itisimpossible,\"murmuredLucy,andthen,rememberingtheexperiencesofherownheart,shesaid:\"No——itisjustpossible。” Youthenwrappedthem;thesongofPhaethonannouncedpassionrequited,loveattained。Buttheywereconsciousofalovemoremysteriousthanthis。Thesongdiedaway;theyheardtheriver,bearingdownthesnowsofwinterintotheMediterranean。