第29章

类别:其他 作者:Winston Churchill字数:9097更新时间:18/12/13 14:48:47
recalledhowIhadout-manoeuvredhimandgonetocollege;IrememberedtheMarchdaysolongago,whenTomandIhadstoodonthecornerdebatinghowtodeceivehim,anditwasIwhohadsuggestedthenicedistinctionbetweenaboatandaraft.Well,myfather\'sillogicalattitudetowardsboyhoodnature,towardshumannature,hadforcedmeintothatlie,justasthesenselessattitudeofthepublicto-dayforcedbusinessintoapositionofhypocrisy. \"Well,that\'sclever,\"hesaid,slowlyandperplexedly,whenIhadfinished.\"It\'sdamnedclever,butsomehowitlookstomeallwrong.I can\'tpickittopieces.\"Hegotupratherheavily.\"I——IguessIoughttobegoing.Susandoesn\'tknowwhereIam.\" Iwasexasperated.Itwasclear,thoughhedidnotsayso,thathethoughtmedishonest.Thepaininhiseyeshaddeepened. \"Ifyoufeelthatway——\"Isaid. \"Oh,God,Idon\'tknowhowIfeel!\"hecried.\"You\'retheoldestfriendIhave,Hugh,——Ican\'tforgetthat.We\'llsaynothingmoreaboutit.\" HepickeduphishatandamomentlaterIheardthefrontdoorclosebehindhim.Istoodforawhilestock-still,andthenwentintothelivingroom,whereMaudewassewing. \"Why,where\'sTom?\"sheinquired,lookingup. \"Oh,hewenthome.HesaidSusandidn\'tknowwherehewas.\" \"Howqueer!Hugh,wasthereanythingthematter?Isheintrouble?\"sheaskedanxiously. Istoodtoyingwithabook-mark,reflecting.Shemustinevitablycometosuspectthatsomethinghadhappened,anditwouldbeaswelltofortifyher. \"Thetroubleis,\"Isaidafteramoment,\"thatPerryandTomwouldliketorunmodernbusinessontheprincipleofacharitableinstitution. Unfortunately,itisnotpractical.They\'reupsetbecauseIhavebeenretainedbyasyndicatewhoseobjectistodevelopsomelandoutbeyondMaplewoodAvenue.They\'veboughttheland,andweareaskingthecitytogiveusarighttobuildalineoutMaplewoodAvenue,whichistheobviouswaytogo.Perrysaysitwillspoiltheavenue.That\'snonsense,inthefirstplace.Theavenueiswide,andthetrackswillbeinagrassplotinthecentre.Forthesakeofkeepingtracksoffthatavenuehewoulddeprivepeopleofattractivehomesatasmallcost,ofthegoodairtheycangetbeyondtheheights;hewouldstuntthecity\'sdevelopment.\" \"Thatdoesseemalittleunreasonable,\"Maudeadmitted.\"Isthatallheobjectsto?\" \"No,hethinksitanoutragebecause,inordertogetthefranchise,wehavetodealwiththecitypoliticians.Well,itsohappens,andalwayshashappened,thatpoliticshavebeencontrolledbyleaders,whomPerrycalls`bosses,\'andtheyarenotparticularlyattractivemen.Youwouldn\'tcaretoassociatewiththem.Myfatheroncerefusedtobemayorofthecityforthisreason.Buttheyarenecessities.Ifthepeopledidn\'twantthem,they\'dtakeenoughinterestinelectionstothrowthemout.Butsincethepeopledowantthem,andtheyarethere,everytimeanewstreet-carlineorsomethingofthatsortneedstobebuilttheyhavetobeconsulted,because,withouttheirinfluencenothingcouldbedone. Ontheotherhand,thesepoliticianscannotaffordtoignoremenoflocalimportancelikeLeonardDickinsonandAdolfSchererandMillerGorsewhorepresentfinancialsubstanceand\'responsibility.Ifanewstreet- railroadistobebuilt,thesearethelogicalonestobuildit.YouhavejustthesamesituationinElkington,onasmallerscale. Yourfamily,theHutchinses,ownthemillsandthestreet-railroads,andanynewenterprisethatpresentsitselfisdonewiththeirmoney,becausetheyarereliableandsound.\" \"Itisn\'tpleasanttothinkthattherearesuchpeopleasthepoliticians,isit?\"saidMaude,slowly. \"Unquestionablynot,\"Iagreed.\"Itisn\'tpleasanttothinkofsomeothercrudeforcesintheworld.Buttheyexist,andtheyhavetobedealtwith.SupposetheUnitedStatesshouldrefusetotradewithRussiabecause,fromourrepublicanpointofview,weregardedhergovernmentastyrannicalandoppressive?ortocooperatewithEnglandinsomeundertakingfortheworld\'sbenefitbecausewecontendedthatsheruledIndiawithanironhand?Insuchacase,ourPresidentandSenatewouldbescoundrelsformakingandratifyingatreaty.YetherearePerryandTom,andnodoubtSusanandLucia,accusingme,alifetimefriend,ofdishonestybecauseIhappentobecounselforasyndicatethatwishestobuildastreet-railroadfortheconvenienceofthepeopleofthecity.\" \"Oh,no,notofdishonesty!\"sheexclaimed.\"Ican\'t——Iwon\'tbelievetheywoulddothat.\" \"Prettynearit,\"Isaid.\"IfIlistenedtothem,Ishouldhavetogiveupthelawaltogether.\" \"Sometimes,\"sheansweredinalowvoice,\"sometimesIwishyouwould.\" \"Imighthaveexpectedthatyouwouldtaketheirpointofview.\" AsIwasturningawayshegotupquicklyandputherhandonmyshoulder. \"Hugh,pleasedon\'tsaysuchthings——you\'venorighttosaythem.\" \"Andyou?\"Iasked. \"Don\'tyousee,\"shecontinuedpleadingly,\"don\'tyouseethatwearegrowingapart?That\'stheonlyreasonIsaidwhatIdid.Itisn\'tthatIdon\'ttrustyou,thatIdon\'twantyoutohaveyourwork,thatIdemandallofyou.Iknowawomancan\'taskthat,——can\'thaveit.Butifyouwouldonlygiveme——givethechildrenjustalittle,ifIcouldfeelthatwemeantsomethingtoyouandthatthisotherwasn\'tgraduallybecomingeverything,wasn\'tabsorbingyoumoreandmore,killingthebestpartofyou.It\'spoisoningourmarriage,it\'spoisoningallyourrelationships.\" InthatappealtherealMaude,theMaudeoftheearlydaysofourmarriageflashedforthagainsovividlythatIwastakenaback.I understoodthatshehadhadherselfundercontrol,hadwornamask——amaskIhadforcedonher;andtherevelationofthecontinuedexistenceofthatotherMaudewasprofoundlydisturbing.Wasittrue,asshesaid,thatmyabsorptioninthegreatgameofmodernbusiness,inthemodernAmericanphilosophyitimpliedwaspoisoningmymarriage?orwasitthatmymarriagehadfailedtosatisfyandabsorbme?Iwastouched——butsentimentallytouched:Ifeltthatthiswasasituationthatoughttotouchme;Ididn\'twishtofaceit,asusual:Icouldn\'tacknowledgetomyselfthatanythingwasreallywrongIpattedherontheshoulder,I bentoverandkissedher. \"Amaninmypositioncan\'taltogetherchoosejusthowbusyhewillbe,\" Isaidsmiling.\"MattersarethrustuponmewhichIhavetoaccept,andIcan\'thelpthinkingaboutsomeofthemwhenIcomehome.Butwe\'llgooffforarealvacationsoon,Maude,toEurope——andtakethechildren.\" \"Oh,Ihopeso,\"shesaid. Fromthistimeon,asmaybesupposed,ourintercoursewithboththeBlackwoodsbegantogrowlessfrequent,althoughMaudecontinuedtoseeagreatdealofLucia;andwhenwediddineintheircompany,ortheywithus,itwasquitenoticeablethattheirformerraillerywassuppressed. EvenTomhadceasedtorefertomeastheyoungNapoleonoftheLaw:heclungtome,buthetookeptsilentonthesubjectofbusiness.Maudeofcoursemusthavenoticedthis,musthavesensedthechangeofatmosphere,haveknownthattheBlackwoods,atleast,weremaintainingappearancesforhersake.Shedidnotspeaktomeofthechange,norItoher;butwhenIthoughtofhersilence,itwastosuspectthatshewasweighingthequestionwhichhadleduptothedifferencebetweenPerryandme,andIhadasuspicionthatthefactthatIwasherhusbandwouldnotaffectherultimatedecision.Thisfacultyofhersofthinkingthingsoutinsteadofacceptingmyviewsanddecisionswas,asthesayinggoes,gettingalittle\"onmynerves\":thatsheofallwomenshouldhavedevelopeditwasarecurringandunpleasantsurprise.Ibeganattimestopitymyselfalittle,tofeeltheneedofsympatheticcompanionship—— femininecompanionship IshallnotgointothedetailsoftheprocurementofwhatbecameknownastheRiversideFranchise.InspiteoftheMaplewoodresidents,oftheCityImprovementLeagueandindividualprotests,weobtaineditwithabsurdease.IndeedPerryBlackwoodhimselfappearedbeforethePublicUtilitiesCommitteeoftheBoard.ofAldermen,analvaslistenedtowithdeferenceandgravitywhilehediscoursedonthedefacementofabeautifulboulevardtosatisfythegreedofcertainprivateindividuals. Mr.OttoBitterandmyself,whoappearedforthepetitioners,hadasimilarreception.Thatstrugglewasatempestinatea-pot.Thereformerraged,buthewasfeebleinthosedays,andthegreatpublicbelievedwhatitreadintherespectablenewspapers.InMr.JudahB. Tallant\'snewspaper,forinstance,theMorningEra,thereweresemi- playfuleditorialsabout\"obstructionists.\"Mr.PerryBlackwoodwasawell-meaning,ablegentlemanofanoldfamily,etc.,butwithasentimentforhorse-cars.TheErapublishedalsotheresolutionswhich(withinterestingspontaneity!)hadbeenpassedbyourBoardofTradeandChamberofCommerceandotherinfluentialbodiesinfavourofthefranchise;theidea——unknowntothepublic——ofMr.HughParet,whowrotedraftsoftheresolutionsandsuggestedprivatelytoMr.LeonardDickinsonthatalittleenthusiasmfromtheseorganizationsmightbehelpful.Mr.Dickinsonacceptedthesuggestioneagerly,wonderingwhyhehadn\'tthoughtofithimself.Theresolutionscarriedsomeweightwithapublicthatdidnotknowitsrighthandfromitsleft. Afterfittingdeliberation,oneeveninginFebruarytheBoardofAldermenmetandgrantedthefranchise.Notunanimously,oh,no!Mr.Jasonwasnotsosimpleasthat!NofurthervisitstoMonahan\'ssaloononmypart,inthisconnectionwerenecessary;butMr.OttoBittermetmeonedayinthehotelwithasignificantmessagefromtheboss. \"It\'sallfixed,\"heinformedme.\"MurphyandScottandOttheimerandGradyandLotharethedecoys.Youunderstand?\" \"IthinkIgatheryourmeaning,\"Isaid. Mr.Bittersmiledbypullingdownonecornerofacrookedmouth. \"They\'llvoteagainstitonprinciple,youknow,\"headded.\"WegetalittlesomethingfromtheMapleAvenueresidents.\" I\'veforgottenwhattheRiversideFranchisecost.ThesumwaspaidinalumpsumtoMr.Bitterashis\"fee,\"——so,totheirchagrin,agrandjurydiscoveredinlateryears,whentheywerebarkingaroundMr.Jason\'sholewithaneagerdistrictattorneysnappinghiswhipoverthem.Irememberthecartoon.Themunicipalgeeseweregone,butitwasimpossibletoprovethatthisparticularfoxhadusedhisenlightenedreasonintheirprocurement.Mr.Bitterwasalegallyauthorizedfox,andcouldtakefees.HowMr.Jasonwastoberewardedbythelandcompany\'sleft-hand,unknown,tothelandcompany\'srighthand,becameaproblemworthyofagenius.Thegeniuswasfound,butmodestyforbidsmetomentionhisname,andtheproblemwassolved,towit:thelandcompanyboughtapieceofdowntownpropertyfrom——Mr.Ryerson,whowasMr.Grierson\'srealestatemanandtheagentforthelandcompany,foraconsiderationofthirtythousanddollars.AnunconfirmedrumourhaditthatMr.RyersonturnedoverthethirtythousandtoMr.Jason.ThentheRiversideCompanyissuedasecretdeedofthesamepropertybacktoMr.Ryerson,andthisdeedwasnotrecordeduntilsomeyearslater. Sucharetheelaboratetransactionsprogressandprosperitydemand. Natureisthegreatteacher,andweknowthatherwaysareattimescomplicatedandclumsy.Likewise,underthe\"natural\"lawsofeconomics,newenterprisesarenotbornwithouttravail,withouttheaidoflegalphysicianswellversedinfinancialobstetrics.Onehundredandfiftytotwohundredthousand,letussay,fortherighttobuildtracksonMaplewoodAvenue,andwesoldnearlytwomilliondollarsworthofthesecuritiesbacktothepublicwhosealdermenhadsoldusthefranchise. Isthereamansodeadasnottofeelathrillatthisachievement?AndletnoonewhodeclaresthatliterarytalentandimaginationarenonexistentinAmericapronouncefinaljudgmentuntilhereadsthatprospectus,inwhichwascombinedthebestofrealismandsymbolism,forthelaboursofAlonzoCheynewerenottobewasted,afterall.Mr. Dickinson,whowasadirectorintheMaplewoodline,gotahandsomeunderwritingpercentage,andMr.Berringer,alsoadirector,onthebondsandpreferredstockhesold.Mr.Paret,whoenteredbothcompaniesonthegroundfloor,likewisegotfees.Everybodywassatisfiedexceptthetroublemakers,whowereignored.Inshort,theepisodeoftheRiversideFranchiseisatriumphantproofofthecontentionthatbusinessmenarethebestfittedtoconductthepoliticsoftheircountry. Wehadlearnedtopursueourhappinessinpacks,weknewthattheHappyHunting-Groundsarehereandnow,whiletheReverendCareyHeddoncontinuedtoassurethemaimed,thehaltandtheblindthattheirkingdomwasnotofthisworld,thattheirtimewascominglater.Couldtherehavebeenamoreidylarrangement!Everybodyshouldhavebeensatisfied,buteverybodywasnot.Otherwisethesepageswouldneverhavebeenwritten. AFARCOUNTRY ByWinstonChurchillBOOK3. XVIII. Asthenameofourcitygrewtobemoreandmoreabywordforsuddenandfabulouswealth,notonlyweretheHunsandtheSlavs,theCzechsandtheGreeksdrawntous,butitbecamethefashionfordistinguishedEnglishmenandFrenchmenandsometimesGermansandItalianstopayusavisitwhentheymadethegrandtourofAmerica.Theyhadbeentoldthattheymustnotmissus;scarcelyaweekwentbyinourcommunity——soitwassaid——inwhichafull-fledgedmillionairewasnotturnedout.Ourvisitorsdidnotalwaysremainaweek,——sincetheirrapidjourneyingsfromtheAtlantictothePacific,fromCanadatotheGulfrarelyoccupiedmorethanfour,——butinthebooksembodyingtheirmaturecommentsonthemanners,customsandcruditiesofAmericancivilizationnolessthanachapterwasusuallydevotedtous;andmostoftheadjectivesintheirvariouslanguageswereexhaustedintheattempttoprovehowsymptomaticwewereoftheambitionsandidealsoftheRepublic.Thefactthatmanyofthesegentlemen——literaryandotherwise——returnedtotheirownshoresbetterfedandwithlargerbalancesinthebanksthanwhentheydepartedisneitherherenorthere.Egyptiansareproverbiallycreatedtobespoiled. ThewiserandmorefortunateofthesetravellersandstudentsoflifebroughtletterstoMr.andMrs.HambletonDurrett.Thathouseholdwassymptomatic——iftheyliked——oftheneworderofthings;anditwasrareindeedwhenbothmembersofitwereathometoentertainthem.IfMr. Durrettwereinthecity,andtheydidnothappentobeBritonswithsportingproclivities,theysimplywerenotentertained:whenMrs. DurrettreceivedthemdinnersweregivenintheirhonourontheDurrettgoldplate,andtheyspentcoseyanddelightfulhoursconversingwithherinthelittlesalonoverlookingthegarden,toreturntotheirhotelsandjotdownparagraphsonthesuperiorityoftheAmericanwomenoverthemen.TheseparticularforeignersdidnotlayeyesonMr.Durrett,whowasinFloridaorintheEastplayingpoloorengagedinsomeotherpursuit.Oneresultofthelavishnessandluxurythatamazedthemtheywrote——hadbeentoraisethestandardofcultureofthewomen,whowereourleisureclass.Butthetravellersdidnotremainlongenoughtoarriveatanyconclusionsofvalueontheeffectofluxuryandlavishnessonthesacredinstitutionofmarriage. IfMr.NathanielDurrettcouldhavereturnedtohisnativecityafterfifteenyearsorsointhegrave,nottheleastofthephenomenatostartlehimwouldhavebeenthatwhichwastakingplaceinhisownhouse. ForhewouldhavebeheldserenelyestablishedinthatformerabodeofCalvinismoneofthemostreprehensibleofexoticabominations,a\'mariagedeconvenance;\'norcouldhehavefailedtoobserve,moreover,thecomplacencywithwhichthedescendantsofhisfriends,thepewholdersinDr.Pound\'schurch,regardedthematter:andnotonlythese,butthecityatlarge.ThestrongholdofScotchPresbyterianismhadbecomeaLondonoraParis,aGomorrah! Mrs.HambletonDurrettwentherway,andMr.Durretthis.ThelesssaidaboutMr.Durrett\'sway——eveninthissuddenlyadvancedage——thebetter. AsforNancy,sheseemedtothedistanteyetobewalkingthroughlifeinastatelyandtriumphantmanner.Ireadinthenewspapersofherdoings,hercomingsandgoings;sometimesshewasawayformonthstogether,oftenabroad;andwhenshewasathomeIsawher,butinfrequently,underconditionsmoreorlessformal.Notthatshewasformal,——orI:ourintercourseseemedeloquentofanintimacyinatantalizingstateofsuspense.Wouldthatintimacyeverberenewed?ThuswasaquestiononwhichIsometimesspeculated.Thesituationthathadsuspendedorputanendtoit,asthecasemightbe,wasneverreferredtobyeitherofus. OneafternooninthelatewinteroftheyearfollowingthatinwhichwehadgivenadinnertotheScherers(wheretheDurrettshadrathermarvellouslyappearedtogether)Ileftmyofficeaboutthreeo\'clock——amostunusualoccurrence.Iwasrestless,unabletofixmymindonmywork,filledwithunsatisfiedyearningstheobjectofwhichIsoughttokeepvague,andyetIdirectedmystepswestwardalongBoyneStreetuntilIcametotheArtMuseum,wherealoanexhibitionwasbeingheld.I entered,boughtacatalogue,andpresentlyfoundmyselfstandingbeforenumber103,designatedasaportraitofMrs.HambletonDurrett,——paintedinParistheautumnbeforebyaPolishartistthenmuchinvogue,StanislausCzesky.Nancy——wasitNancy?——wasstandingfacingme,tall,superbinthematurityofherbeauty,withonehandrestingonanantiquetable,asmileuponherlips,agentlemockeryinhereyesasthoughlaughingattheworldsheadorned.Withthesmileandthemockery—— somehowsignificant,too,ofanachievedinaccessibility——wentthesheenofherclinginggownandtheglintoftheheavypearlsdroopingfromherhighthroattoherwaist.Thesecaughttheeye,butfailedatlengthtoholdit,forevenasIlookedthesmilefaded,themockeryturnedtowistfulness.SoIthought,andlookedagain——toseethewistfulness:thesmilehadgone,thepearlsseemedheavier.Wasitatrickoftheartist? hadheseenwhatIsaw,orthoughtIsaw?orwasitthatimaginationwhichbynowImighthavelearnedtosuspectanddistrust.Wildlongingstookpossessionofme,fortheportraithadseemedtoemphasizeatoncehowdistantnowshewasfromme,andyethownear!Iwantedtoputthatnearnesstothetest.Hadshereallychanged?didanyonereallychange? andhadInotbeenafooltoacceptthepresentmentshehadgivenme?I rememberedthosemomentswhenourglanceshadmetasacrossbarriersinflashesofunderstanding.Afterall,thebarriersweremererelicsofthesuperstitionofthepast.WhatifIwenttohernow?IfeltthatIneededherasIneverhadneededanyoneinallmylifeIwasarousedbythesoundofloweredvoicesbesideme. \"That\'sMrs.HambletonDurrett,\"Iheardawomansay.\"Isn\'tshebeautiful?\" Thenoteofenvystruckmesharply——horribly.WithoutwaitingtolistentothecommentofhercompanionIhurriedoutofthebuildingintothecold,whitesunlightthatthrewintoboldreliefthemediocrehousesofthestreet.Herewaseverydaylife,buttheportraithadsuggestedthatwhichmighthavebeen——mightbeyet.WhatdidImeanbythis?Ididn\'tknow,Ididn\'tcaretodefineit,——arenewalofherfriendship,ofourintimacy.Mybeingcriedoutforit,andintheworldinwhichIlivedwetookwhatwewanted——whynotthis?AndyetforaninstantIstoodonthesidewalktodiscoverthatinnewsituationsIwasstillsubjecttounaccountablequalmsofthatthingIhadbeentaughttocall\"conscience\";whetheritwereconscienceornotmustbelefttothepsychologists.Iwasmarried——terribleword!theshadowofthatInstitutionfellathwartmeasthesunwentunderacloud;butthesuncameoutagainasIfoundmyselfwalkingtowardtheDurretthousereflectingthatnumbersofmarriedmencalledonNancy,andthatwhatI hadinmindinregardtoherwasnothingthatthecourtwouldhavepronouncedaninfringementupontheInstitutionIreachedhersteps,thelongstepsstillguardedbythecurvedwrought-ironrailingsreminiscentofNathaniel\'sday,thoughthe\"portals\"weregone,amodernvestibulehavingreplacedthem;Irangthebell;thebutler,flungopenthedoors.He,atanyrate,didnotseemsurprisedtoseemehere,hegreetedmewithrespectfulcordialityandledme,asafavouredguest,throughthebigdrawing-roomintothesalon. \"Mr.Paret,Madam!\" Nancy,rosequicklyfromthelowchairwhereshesatcuttingthepagesofaFrenchnovel. \"Hugh!\"sheexclaimed.\"I\'moutifanyonecalls.Bringtea,\"sheaddedtotheman,whoretired.Foramomentwestoodgazingateachother,questioningly.\"Well,won\'tyousitdownandstayawhile?\"sheasked. Itookachairontheoppositesideofthefire. \"IjustthoughtI\'ddropin,\"Isaid. \"Iamflattered,\"saidNancy,\"thatapersonsoaffaireshouldfindtimetocallonanoldfriend.Why,Ithoughtyouneverleftyourofficeuntilseveno\'clock.\" \"Idon\'t,asarule,butto-dayIwasn\'tparticularlybusy,andIthoughtI\'dgoroundtotheArtMuseumandlookatyourportrait.\" \"Moreflattery!Hugh,you\'regettingquitehuman.Whatdoyouthinkofit?\" \"Ilikeit.Ithinkitquiteremarkable.\" \"Haveacigarette!\" Itookone. \"Soyoureallylikeit,\"shesaid. \"Don\'tyou?\" \"Oh,Ithinkit\'satrifle——romantic,\"shereplied\"Butthat\'sCzesky. Hemademequitecross,——thefemininepresentationofAmerica,thespoiledwomanwhohasshedresponsibilitiesandisbeginningtohaveaglimpse——justalittleone——oftheemptinessofitall.\" Iwasstirred. \"Thenwhydoyouacceptit,ifitisn\'tyou?\"Idemanded.\"Onedoesn\'trefuseCzesky\'scanvases,\"shereplied.\"Andwhatdifferencedoesitmake?Itamusedhim,andhewasfairlysubtleaboutit.Onlythosewhoarelookingforromance,likeyou,areabletoguesswhathemeant,andtheywouldthinktheysawitanyway,evenifhehadpaintedme——extinct.\" \"Extinct!\"Irepeated. Shelaughed. \"Hugh,you\'reasillyoldgoose!\" \"That\'swhyIcamehere,Ithink,tobetoldso,\"Isaid. Teawasbroughtin.Asenseofat-homenessstoleoverme,——IwasmoreathomehereinthisroomwithNancy,thaninanyotherplaceintheworld; here,whereeverythingwasatoncesoothingyetstimulating,expressiveofher,eventhesmallerobjectsthatcaughtmyeye,——thecrystalinkstandtippedwithgold,theracksforthetablebooks,herpaper- cutter.Nancy\'swasadiscriminatingluxury.Andhertalk!Thelightnesswithwhichshetouchedlife,theunexploreddepthsofher,guessedatbutneverfathomed!DidshefeelalittletheneedofmeasI felttheneedofher?